We talk about peeling back the layers of the onion, and when we start to do our own spiritual work, that is exactly what happens.
Last week, I felt like I was 16 years old again. I felt like I had peeled back the layers to the place that hides my deepest secrets, my deepest fears, my deepest hurts (so far, until the next layer). That 16 year old soul that never felt good enough, never felt pretty enough, never felt talented enough and never felt smart enough. That 16 year old that was just never enough.
Why now?
Why are these emotions coming to the surface now? Because now is the time. Should I choose to be happy now or wait for later? Should I choose to look at myself in all honesty now or to avoid the pain and choose to deal with myself later? Well, I choose now.
Every relationship we have with every person on this planet has a purpose. Every relationship we have is here to heal us, to help us peel back more of the onion……if we let it. The problem is, that often we don’t let it. We don’t fully heal because we are riddled with fear. Fear of letting go of our behaviours, fear of letting go of our emotions, fear of letting go of who we think we are, fear of what letting go may cost us.
Let’s look at this differently and ask ourselves, “What will it cost us to not let go? What is the cost of hanging onto our fears?”
As Marianne Williamson says:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
So now it is time to decide, do we take the leap and let go of the fear?