Tools I use to heal myself
I just had an astrology session with the amazing Stormie Grace and boy did it rock!!! It literally put the last 5 years of my life into perspective (or a bit more perspective, I have had lots of “perspective” over the past very stormy (no pun intended) few years).
Now, the last 5 years of my life have been anything but stable (and I have always prided myself on being a girl who loves and embraces and in some cases does all she can to keep things stable). Well, everything “stable” left me and I realized there was no such thing as stability. It is really just an imaginary realm of existence that we make up in our world and in our society to try to keep ourselves at peace and to kepp us feeling anything but anxious. I was queen of stability!!!
Now, when I say everything “stable” left, I mean literally EVERYTHING that constituted as life as I knew it fell apart. My marriage, my business, my relationship after my marriage and then, well, me. I fell apart too. I fell apart into the abyss of the unknown, the abyss of change. It literally felt as if the Universe said, stop your dabbling and start pulling up your socks and get to where you need to be.
It’s as if the choice was taken out of my hands because if I didn’t follow through, I knew that I would not be standing here today. I was devastated. All my fears were surrounding me and suffocating me. It was hard to breathe, it was hard to stop the thoughts, it was hard to wake up and get out of bed and “pretend” that life was normal. It was finally time, and I was forced to face every fear I had ever tried to avoid head on. The only thing certain was that life was changing and it was (and still is) changing fast. If I didn’t face up to my fears they would certainly swallow me whole. My world had never felt so dark.
(Back to my session with Stormie Grace now)
When my astrological chart was laid out and we looked at it, the first thing that came across was that the last five years of my life have been anything but normal. The last five years of my life, were written in the stars. They were meant to happen, in fact, they couldn’t have happened any other way (well, I didn’t have to resist them, and I could have learned how to embrace the change and let go of the fear faster but hey, what fun would it have been to bypass all of those horrible feelings and growth pains? (that is my sarcasm showing through) Argh!!!)
Meant to be
Life was meant to be torn apart so that I could rise anew like a Pheonix out of the ashes. And do you know what? The best is yet to come!! So many exciting things ahead.
So…..if you are ever at a breakdown, a standstill or a slowdown, just look to the stars to help you guide your way. I know I do and it has made a world of difference.